All the Runners Run

Boy that is profound, isn’t it? All the runners run. Duh. That’s why they’re runners.


I’ve long been a runner. Not always physically, but I’m a runner nonetheless. All of my life I kept running. Running from the boogey man, from pain, from fears, from people, from love, from Jesus.

Almost ten years ago I also started running physically. What great bringing together of the inside and outside of my life. Run away on the inside, run away on the outside.


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I recently spent a glorious week in beautiful Blue Springs, Missouri. We used to always joke that Missouri was really spelling M-I-S-E-R-Y. This week was anything but misery.  I was attending a rather intensive retreat and Jesus exploded all over this woman.

By all over, I really mean All. Over. Completely.

My prayer going into the retreat was that Jesus would ruin me for life as normal. That I would  have zero desire to ever back to what my life had been like. He completely undid me!

I will never, ever forget my time there. I will never forget what He told me there. I will never forget the pictures He gave me.

I am ruined. Forever ruined by Him and for Him.

If you were to zoom in on my necklace in the picture above you would find the pendant is a stick figure of a runner. Very much indicative of my life to date. I wore it with happiness.

Happiness but not joy.

I had been home for a just a couple of days at the most when I was putting the necklace back on one morning when I heard Jesus speak to my soul.

That isn’t who you are any longer. Throw it away. 


I held it in my hands, looking at it. And again I heard Him speak,

That isn’t who you are any longer. Throw it away. 

My soul reacted with joyful abandonment. And I threw the necklace in the trash. I have been completely set free from my running from everything.



I still run. It just looks different now. Instead of running from, I run to. I run to Him. I run to life. I run to love. I run to joy. I run to friendships. I run and when I run I feel His pleasure.




Hazy, Crazy, Lazy days


That is what today is, only it’s not summer. I have had moments of intense busyness today followed by more bouts of laziness. It’s a good thing I was extra productive this week, huh?

So far I have managed to make bread, watch Nebraska lose miserably to Michigan, get lunch, clean the kitchen, decide about supper, consume copious amounts of French roast coffee.

Speaking of that, isn’t there just something so good about French Press coffee? Delish. I love it. In the past 12ish hours I have made 6 or 7 cups with my french press and I’m not ashamed to admit, I drank all but 2 of them.  My youngest child loves coffee and will drink it black and strong. My oldest child isn’t all that impressed with coffee but she has discovered she loves it with plenty of flavored creamer. What she doesn’t know is every day I add a little less creamer. Bwahahahaha.

My French Press is rather small and only makes about 3/4 cup…well 3/4 my size of mug…and that just isn’t enough for me.

Not near big enough

I should ask for one for Christmas because I would love a larger one. Maybe like this:

Oh yeah.



I have also managed to watch Ohio State lose to Penn State.  I have also determined that next week I will not be watching any college football. It’s too dangerous.

Speaking of college football, what is with the coaches being in trouble? I’m thinking specifically of Sandusky of Penn State but today I also heard about the head coach at Missouri. He was suspended following his arrest for drunk driving.  That is horribly disappointing.

We woke to a skiff of snow this morning. We were of course promised a huge snow storm.

Thanksgiving. We are traveling this year to Mr. FullCup’s sister’s house. We have done this for the past 3 or 4 years. I have come to realize the only way we get a break is for us to leave town. Between Mr. FullCup’s two jobs and my ministry at the church we are just busy all the time. Holidays aren’t really holidays because there is still a lot of work to do. Yes, when we leave town it takes more work to get ready to leave and then when we get back there is more work because we were gone. But the break is so nice. We will probably also travel at Christmas just for the break but we haven’t decided for sure yet.

For Thanksgiving I need to remember to take the recipe for my pumpkin cheesecake. I’m also making extra bread now so we can take some of that too. I will probably also be making the green bean casserole. Speaking of making bread, in the past 3 days I have made 6 loaves. I know that only averages to two loaves a day, but I didn’t make bread yesterday.

I don’t about your house but when I make bread it is as good as gone. I have to make more than one recipe that day especially if we have been out of bread for a while.  Don’t you wish you were at my house?